Once Upon a Dream Mod Journal

CASSIE! IT'S SNOWING!

My favorite thing in the whole world is the first snow fall of the season. Every thing seems calmer, quieter. Peaceful. It feels hopeful and just nice. I don't really know how else to explain it. It just seems like something so pure in such and impure and imperfect world.

The best time to enjoy it is just after it stops. Like right after. Before people start walking on the sidewalks and shoveling the snow. Before it turns grey and disgusting from dirt.

My second favorite thing is the first snow day. I've always really liked that movie 'Snow Day'. I watch it with my younger siblings every year on the first snow day.

Incase it wasn't extremely obvious...I really want it to snow. And it might on Christmas Eve I hear!

I am so happy to be home. I missed my mom and well, I'm just happy the quarter is over. I feel like I did really well on my exams and my classes. I spent every waking moment studying and preparing for final tests, papers, presentations. But now it is time to not think about that and to just relax and rest. To rejuvenate my brain. Final examinations is always such a stressful and overwhelming time for me. I suppose that is the perfectionist in me though.

Gracie, Pippa, Leah - do you girls want to grab some lunch one of these days? I feel like it would be nice to just be out with the girls. Gossiping and girl talk is always a good pick me up.

It's kind of nice to be home!

We have school for a few more days still! Though I think all of us already feel as though we're on break! It's not like we're starting anything new anyway! They're selling candy grams and things that are going to our class fund. They're kind of cute!

I don't know. I'm rambling. I'm bored! Maybe its all this Christmas cheer!

I can't believe the semester is over already.

[Blocked From Shelby or Jon or anyone that would tell them]

What did I do?

I kissed her. I kissed Shelby.

She didn't- I shouldn't ha-


I am an idiot!

I should be spending more of my time studying but going out and partying just seems much more appealing. It's without a doubt much more fun! Tuesday is my last day for classes and then I have exams until December 21st. So basically I'll study Wednesday and then Sunday yhopefully!

Lydia, when's your break? I'm off from December 22 to January 19. I was planning to split my break between Chicago and Los Angeles. That way I get to spend my break and some of the holidays with all of my family. It would really be fun to ring in the new year with everyone I love.

We don't even have a Christmas tree this year. No lights, no nothing. I suppose it was more my mother's doing each and every year but...well I was under the impression my father might be around for our first Christmas together in a new town. Should I be surprised though when our new start hadn't materialized as he had said either? I should just be used to things by now.

In other news, it appears that it is supposed to snow tomorrow. I could do without it though. Have I mentioned it is beyond freezing? I would like Summer to be here again.

Anna, would you be interested in dinner and a movie tomorrow night?

[Private to Close Friends]
I'm still not making any headway with Katherine it seems. I've tried making up for what I've missed. I've tried being here now. I've tried being her friend but nothing seems to be working. I think she just has to come around on her own. I have to stop trying to be her friend and be her parent and show her that I am not going anywhere.

On the upside things between Patrick and I have gotten much, much better. I promised Patrick that I wanted to make this work and that I will start consulting him on joint decisions where our daughters are concerned. He promised to listen to my opinions. So far it is going well. We still have our bad moments but overall things are infinitely better.
[/Private.]

It is quite enjoyable to be able to spend Christmas with my family. I can tell you that I know I've missed so much. And I realize now, just how much I really did miss. I'm very excited to see my kids come down on Christmas morning, even if they are just bout all grown up!

I have to tell you that I absolutely adore Rachel Ray's recipe's! So easy that even I can cook! I've been making a ton of them lately. Probably not as healthy as my dearest sister likes but still good, right Livvy? And her thirty minute meals are amazing. Prep time, cook time and clean up are not at all out of control. She also likes to use a lot of cheese I've noticed. Pretty good that its one of my basic food groups! Definitely no where near as amazingly fantastic as the food from Montague's but it keeps me going I suppose! It's all Livvy's fault that its my favorite place to eat!

I suppose I should return to studying for my final! While waiting for my Mexican Lasagna to finish! And then I have to iron my clothes for tomorrow.

Needed for: Nikki Summers underabelljar
Name:
Age: 21-24/25
Location: NYC
Line info: Male BFF! Someone she can go to, stay with when she's having nightmares and would rather stay up for days than go back to sleep. Someone to help her take her mind off of it! Probably a kind of friends with benefit line I guess too! She'd tell him everything and be honest. He'd also know what under a bell jar meant if she talked about it or said it in her sleep! UM. Could be before she went away they were friends or met after she got out. I'm up for whatever!
Suggested PB: ANY!
Contact: babysittermisscindy@yahoo.com or wreckoftheday20 (aim)

[Blocked from her family]
The nightmares have started again. I am almost wishing for insomnia again. That kind of sounds really bad doesn't it? I think it does. It makes me sound...abnormal...crazy even. I wish I knew what would make these nightmares stop. I know it's not me...it's not when I....but it brings that time back. All those memories...and the...the only way...it would be easy to get rid of those nightmares but I shouldn't...I can't go back to doing that.

Maybe I should go for a walk. Cause I can't sit here any longer and I'm afraid to go back to sleep.
[/Block.]

Summer, where have you been? You have been so extremely busy lately that I think it has been absolutely forever since we've actually done something together. Maybe we can grab some dinner together one night this week? I miss my best friend, my roommate. So Wednesday night okay? Let me know.

Evey, so what are we going to do in Chicago? I was thinking I could come up the day after Christmas and stay for a few days...I mean if that's okay. I still want to be here to do Christmas with Summer like we normally do if she won't be too busy for me.

I have to chaperone a bunch of teenagers at the winter formal we are having. Can't I just teach them? That's much more fun for me! At least I'll have David to chaperone with. He got saddled with the job too! I don't want to have to kids don't do that, or anything like that. Maybe I just want to be the good teacher. I'll make David yell at them. Sounds like an idea to me.

MIA! What on earth are you going to do without me on a Saturday night?

I'm going to have a ton of projects and papers and tests to grade over vacation.

The holidays are extremely stressful in the photo processing world. Everyone wants holiday cards and they don't understand that we need a negative not a print to go off from. Well, there is an option to do it from a print but its harder, takes longer because its more time consuming and a good deal more expensive. Yet they yell at me. I didn't make the rules! I just enforce them. A lot of the pictures of the kids are extremely adorable and they are dressed so cute. There are some really ugly babies mixed in there too.

Mr. G! Saw the picture of your baby girl. She's adorable.